Although I have never heard anything from the last church with whom I interviewed, I noticed on its Web site apparently the church is calling another pastor. Once again, a church treated me poorly.

I have not blogged in a while, and it is largely do to my spiritual malaise that continues to plague me. Every organized church relationship lets me down. Churches, leaders, mentors. Not only do I deal with my own challenges but also a general feeling that no one cares.

I visit churches where pastors cannot preach their way out of a box. I see pastors who abuse their positions. I see pastors who are in it for the money and power. Yet, they find pulpits.

Forgive this particularly whiny post. I suspect it is a symptom of the disappointment of being rejected again. I struggle to make sense of my so-called calling as well as my entire seminary experience. Right now, it seems like a mistake. I am struggling hard to keep the faith.